Ted preached about this several years ago. I was new to the church, learning what it meant to have a relationship with God, and he laid out this awesome message about being a Christ-follower. It flew right over my head. It sounded good and all (if you’ve ever heard Ted preach you would know what I mean), but it didn’t stick. “If you know the right thing to do and you don’t do it, it’s a sin.” “Ok,” I thought, “I’ll work on that.” You see at the time, I was still embracing this whole Jesus-loves-me-and-wants-to-have-a-relationship-with-me thing. I was, as Paul describes in Corinthians, a babe. As I’ve grown in faith, though, I have a better understanding of this scripture. And because of the responsibility it evokes, it makes it on the top ten list:
“If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.” (NIV)
Doing the right thing isn’t always easy, popular or fun. In fact, doing the right thing, according to Jesus, is like going through the narrow gate. Much easier is it to travel the road that is wide, but that’s the road that leads to destruction, as tempting as it may be. I’ve seen this first hand with my ministry: the enemy attacks (surprise!) and I lose the vision of my calling. This happened recently in an ever so subtle way. Of course I was certain that God was with me, but I got distracted. I convinced myself that I had two choices: either grow my relationships within the church or continue to go out and build relationships with those on the corner. It seemed like I had a clear choice. But really, there should be no choice. Setting aside the ministry to become more invested in the church, even for a brief time, was the easy way. I say easy because sometimes it’s challenging to minister to the homeless. At times it’s frustrating, lonely and heart-breaking. Some days I spend more time on the corners or in the camps than I do with my family. And though some of the guys drift off or move on, you can only pray that the seed planted will bear fruit in time. The right thing to do, though, is to stick with it, serve and love and develop those relationships that will save. This is what James meant when he spoke of doing the right thing. Because in the end, doing the right thing not only keeps me from sin, but might also keep another from sinning as well.
“You give them something to eat.”
That was Jesus’ response when the disciples asked him to send the people away. It was late in the day and they were in a remote place. After giving instructions to settle them into groups, Jesus blessed the food and the disciples served them. About five thousand were fed that day.
I remember a time when I was afraid to ask God to grow me. As a budding Christ-follower, I had a sense that if I asked, He would answer and I didn’t know exactly what would come next. Probably, I was afraid of what I’d have to give up and I wasn’t quite ready for that part of the Christian experience. But I knew the day would come when I would ask and so I started praying. I prayed that I would see His path, hear His words and act without fear. Time passed, I continued to do what I thought I was supposed to do and He continued to love me. Along the way, I saw this scripture as a marker in my life, a call to grow. I realized that over the years, I’d been fed by family and friends, each who nurtured me in their own way: my wife who has loved me so wholly as to round-off the sharp edges in my heart; my family who have encouraged and supported me, whether it’s a simple hug or a loving word. I remember that visits to the in-laws usually involved going to church and jogging. I dreaded both, but it worked – the seed planted has sprouted. My weeks are now planned around going to church and jogging. There are friends who showed me how to find my calling, who soul-stormed with me to find the place where my passion leads. A 5k Mission was born of this – food was collected and awareness raised for those in need. Other friends involved me in street ministry and showed me how to see and love the homeless. They were so patient and gave me room to grow in a meaningful way; they helped me find my voice.
For all the prayers, all the love and support I’ve received, I see how much I’ve been fed. And now He is calling me, ‘to give them something to eat.’ You see, when Jesus fed the five thousand he gave the disciples an opportunity to serve and love the people. It was training, to go into this crowd and give them food and encouragement, to build relationships and establish themselves. To love. Jesus was making them known. That’s huge. It’s important. And it’s awesome.
He calls me ‘to give them something to eat,’ not just through deeds, but with words. There is a testimony, my testimony, that’s woven into the fabric of His grace and it must be shared. At times I want to cry out, ‘Lord, not me!’ It’s a fleeting thought – the enemy never ceases to attack. But I believe God wouldn’t have brought me to this point if He hadn’t prepared me for it. He is making me known, and though it gives me an initial shock, I’m grateful, so blessed, to have the opportunity to feed others.